Hairspray ended two weeks ago. Crap. It feels like it ended so many months ago, years even. Those days are lost in my kaleidoscope memories and i will tresure them forever…
BUT WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO MY LIFE???
I feel empty. It’s like if I’m not doing a show, I am not really a person, just a shadow of someone who could and probably should exist. Alive but not living. This happens every time i stop doing a show. Good thing auditions for Beauty and the Beast are tomorrow. I really really incredibly terribly impressively want to be Lumiere, but one of my classmates wants the role and I’m not gonna lie, he’s a really good actor and singer and dancer and all of that jazz. Everyone is already calling him “Candlestick”. The only edge i have is that I’m a senior and he’s an underclassman, but I don’t think that means anything. I’d be more than happy with the beast or lefou. i don’t have the body for gaston. i really don’t want belle’s dad. [sigh]
honestly, I’m just not interested in the show. I’ve looked up the show and the music just doesn’t move me. If i had a choice of musical i would do rent, wicked, avenue q, legally blonde, hairspray (again!), grease, or les miserables. the only good thing about beauty and the beast is lumiere and the amazing storyline. i don’t know what i’m gonna do with my life…
